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I'm Back

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Hello friends, as you can see from the title above, I'm still alive and have returned! I feel I must apologize for having disappeared for, what, the better part of a decade? Adulthood happened, and with all the stress of living on my own, trying to get through college (still), and working a job I genuinely hate, it's been difficult to find the time and energy to create anymore. It's been difficult, even, to find time to enjoy the incredible works that others have created. However, I'm hoping to change that.

I'll be honest, I have zero intentions of writing as much as I used to. My focus, if you can call it that, will be on short stories, fan fiction, that sort of thing. So if any of you are lingering hoping to see some more poetry, I'm sorry to disappoint you. But I'm glad to be back. Writing and enjoying the works of others have always been a happy place for me, and I'm genuinely excited to be returning to that, if only a little.

My original intent was to post only on ao3, but I've always felt more at home here. That being said, there are some works over there that I haven't posted here, but those works are currently incomplete. I was working on a sequel to "Till Death Do Us Part" called "Boss's Orders" and I've been debating returning to it, but I don't know. If there's any interest, let me know, and I'll work on getting back to it.

For now, I hope you can enjoy the uploads I post in the coming future, and I'm very excited to begin interacting with you all once more.

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Hey guys! Hope all is well with everyone. I'm making this post because I need your help. (Obvious title is obvious.)
I'm really trying to get back into writing and I'm doing my best to put in the effort to create. However, as I've stated before, I've been finding it really difficult to find things to write about. The ideas are there but actually getting them on paper is a challenge, to say the least, and frankly, a great deal of my work is extremely repetitive. So that's where you come in. I need you to give me some ideas! For stories, poems, anything! Comment as much or as little as you want, but please, I really need something to work with. So if you have the time, do me a solid and leave some prompts for me in the comment section below along with any notations stating if you want me to write something for you specifically or the writing style (poem, short story, speech, etc.) or whatever comes to mind. So get creative so I can get creative. Thanks in advance! I look forward to seeing what great ideas you throw at me.
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Urgh...

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Ugh... Guys I'm awful, I know! Maybe I'll eventually get back to being active on here. I keep telling myself I'm going to but honestly, I've had a really hard time being creative. I can't stay dedicated to any of my ideas and that's assuming I have any ideas at all. I really miss writing... 
I've got a few pieces I've done over the past few months. They're not all that good, but I'll upload them anyway. As always, you guys are more than welcome to comment with feedback.
Just to update you guys on what's been going on, I'm working full-time on third shift. I have my own insurance (finally). I'm living with my boyfriend and we plan to get engaged in April. My dog turns 2 in 5 days. I have actual furniture. Moved to a bigger apartment. I think that pretty much sums things up. So yeah. Let me know how you guys have been doing. I'd love to hear from some of you. It's been a while.
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I have internet! (and tv)
I probably won't be much more active, but at least i can upload content whenever I feel like it. I've had a few pieces I've been wanting to upload for a while but haven't been able to. Maybe I can finally pick back up some.
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     Heyo guys! Been a while, I know. Of course, this isn't the first time that's happened. I'd apologize, but after doing that so many times already, I feel it's lost its touch. So I'm in a bit of a dilemma. But I'll get to that shortly. 
     So as many of you have noticed, I'm sure, my posting had been incredibly lacking. Allow me to explain why. As most of you are aware, the majority of my writing, i.e. poetry, is primarily on the dark, depressing, borderline concerning side of the realm. That is because for many years, writing was an outlet for me. I grew up dealing with a lot of depression, anxiety, and for a while, suicidal thoughts and tendencies. Writing was one of the main ways I dealt with how I felt (or sometimes, the lack of feeling) regardless of whether or not what I wrote had anything to do with a current situation. Point is, that's how I dealt with a lot of things. How I tried to, anyway. But over the last year (there about) a lot of things have changed. I moved out of my parents' house. I have my own apartment. I have a full-time job. I'm able to pay all of my bills and still have money left over for things I want to do. I have a wonderful dog and four fish. For the first time in my life, I'm happy... I've accomplished so much, fought through so much, obtained so much of what I've spent years dreaming about. I'm not depressed. My anxiety is at an all time low. I don't even take medication anymore. I don't need to. For the first time, I feel normal. I feel human. And it's great! But... Because of this, my writing has hit rock bottom. I no longer have my "inspiraton" because in truth, my misery was all I had. It was all I knew. I have no inspiration anymore, no drive. 
     So here's where you guys come in. I'm going to let all of you, and I know there are a ton of you, decide the gate of this page. I could continue on with poetry. It'll be a different genre most of the time. I could experiment with different themes, categories, play around and see what works. I could switch to a different type of writing. More short stories, maybe finish some of the chaptered works piled up on my computer and in journals. I could try some other types of art. Maybe give a hand at photography or improve my sketching skills. And lastly... If you will it, or if no one says anything... I will let this page essentially die. I'll comment, respond, favorite, and post on the rare occasion that I actually find something to write. But otherwise... It'll be like this page no longer exists. 
     So! I'll leave it up to all of you! Friends, strangers, it doesn't matter! All of you get to decide what I do. I eagerly a await your response (or lack there of). I'll post my decision in a week. See you all then! 
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